i try my best to avoid contact with people because i know how painfully awkward i feel around everyone. i don’t talk much, but i didn’t realize how bad it got. i’ve found myself having trouble saying “thank you” “you’re welcome” “bless you” “hey” the simple things, i’ve found myself replacing them…
With this attitude it seems like you welcome the loneliness.
Oh how easily they forget no anchor to the past Cut the blood supply and hope the heart beats itself to death My ribcage is not my own it still feels like your arms neck clothed in salt How’d I let it go this far? It happens faster than you could ever think From always and forever to never again in less than a blink The river runs until it’s dry But I die spitting my last drip into it’s mouth to keep it alive Long drives, wide eyes, and your smiling face You dance I drink, let’s waste the night away They say you always know right away But you can’t foresee your sand being pulled into the sea under a tidal wave Secrets leak out when you’re asleep Coming from a queen’s mouth, talk isn’t all that cheap I’m now a lone flame searching for a purpose I’m now a lone flame searching for a purpose Setting fires everywhere I go, can’t avoid the burns We shared pain You took me by the throat and made me understand the world as if I were you and I couldn’t breathe Now you can lead a horse to fresh water but you can’t teach it how to be okay when you decide to leave I’m lost, there’s no one to protect I got so used to being shelter from the rain that always followed you It’s not my first time, actually it’s nothin new But that doesn’t make it any easier to get through The snow won’t melt, smoke won’t clear Turned hope inside out a thousand times trying to see if it was ever anything more than dressed up fear, But the two go hand in hand you can’t have one without the other being there I’m barely breathing waiting for the spins to end Begging a god I don’t believe in to let me sleep so I can dream again We went through thick and thin Came out separate on the other end But please know no matter what you’ll always have me as a friend
And I finally know Your crime is your pride and your past is my only ghost I’m going crazy out of my control But there’s nothing I can do, I have no choice but to let it go Each day gets a little less intense I no longer feel like there’s someone standing on my chest You made me more me, and I won’t forget the times you helped my find my feet When I was buried in my head Thank you, for giving what you had to give Taking what you had to take, And making me believe in you. Even though I might be gone forever there will always be a place in my brain that will think of you. You look so graceful when you’re flying Keep going, there’s a lot of world that you haven’t seen, You have my best wishes, even if only in silence, you deserve everything that you’ve ever dreamed. The snow melted right when the smoke cleared, I turned love inside out a thousand times trying to see if it was ever anything more than the will to persevere, but the two go hand in hand, the clouds surrounding you eventually will clear. I can breathe I found contentment in the end, Telling a god I don’t believe in to go to sleep so I can think again. We went through thick and thin, Came out separate on the other end, But please know no matter what you’ll always have me as a friend.
Smile, I know times get hard for you sometimes but keep your chin up. I’m here for you, cry on my shoulder, let it all out, I’ll always be here for you. Don’t worry we have each other and it is grand. In this life that is no shorter than cruel and vague, you make it infinitely easier on my shoulders. I love, I really do.
" Man goes to doctor. Says he’s depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says ‘But Doctor… I am Pagliacci.’ "